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桜童子 第34話 [第1部最終回]Cherry Blossoms Demon 34 [Part 1 final]



黒の鬼の物語


スタバでブラックを買い、どこかのビルの屋上で、この文章を書いている。
2018年の3月だ。 あたしは生きている。 人鬼として、この神戸の街に住み着いたのだ。



あたしは一千年前、白の鬼として死んだ。

しかし、あたしの魂は身延の桜の木に宿り、輪廻転生の時を待った。
白の鬼の片割れは、約束の時を幾度もの転生を繰り返し、ある前世では陰陽師であり、王妃であり、旅行者であり、芸術家であった。
輪廻は世界中で起きた。
あたしはヨーロッパに生まれ、アフリカに旅をした。
記憶は魂に刻まれる。
あたしはいつの時代も、どこの国も、なぜか懐かしく思うのだ。
人の記憶として。



しかし、あたしは月の住人。
その輪廻ごとに、人の身をまとい、人と神との会話を聞いた。

龍の歌を聞き、自分の音を奏でた。


「音」が「脈」をつなげるのだ。


「音」が全てをつなげていく。



九頭龍の歌として。


あたしは、あたしの物語が繋がっていくのを感じる。
耐えられないほどの苦しみも、悲しみも、その意味を知ればそれを糧に変えられる。


全てに「意味」を見出し、自分の宿命を知るのだ。

あたしは「白の鬼」の死後600年ほど経った1600年代に輪廻転生した時に、人に生まれ、祈祷師であり、また鬼であった。
そしてその時代、身延の「桜童子」の元を訪ねた。
あたしの前世、白い鬼の片割れ。
花は咲き、その香りには記憶があった。
記憶は香りだけではなく、大地の感覚や、時代の様相をずっとその根に記憶の情報として刻んでいた。

祈祷師として、あたしは「桜童子」の波動を受け取り、気の流れとして受け入れた。

白の鬼の記憶と神々との対話、龍神との誓い、双子の記憶、九頭龍との約束、転生の意味、今世での使命。それらを記憶として・・・、あたしの記憶として受け入れる。


それから現代まで「人鬼」として生き、「桜童子」の記憶を宿し、時代を見、感じる。


あたしは「人鬼」だ。








白い鬼の記憶が蘇ったことで、今のあたしにおきている事が意味のあることだと理解する。




星に龍脈が繋がれ、列島に緑の龍が宿る。
神々だけの時代、古い時の時代、意識と魂の世界で繋がれた「脈」と「星々」。 気は巡り、波動は循環し、星は歌い、自然神と創造神、龍神、日天、月天と水の星は家族のようだったと感じる。



神はどこにでもいる。この世は神の世界だから。

人間は、この世は人間の世界だと、どこかで勘違いをしている。 この星は神であり、月と太陽の盟友なのだ。













あたしには探さなければいけないものがある。



あたしの新たな「発動」はここから始まる。









第一部 完






















あとがき




はじめに、この物語はフィクションです。 

第一部、完になります。
ここまで読んでくださった皆さま、ありがとうございます。

「桜童子」の第一項を書き始めたのは、もう8年か9年くらい前だと思います。10年は経ってないと思いますが、かなり前のことです。
その頃は物語を書き進める力がなく、なぜか「鬼」の話を書きたいと思って、大筋だけざっと書いてほったらかしておいた物語でした。

2017年末に生活環境が大きく変化して、同年の夏あたりから意識の大きな変化を感じていて、そのことが重なってこの物語を書く「力」になりました。
ちょうど題材も時代背景や設定も表現したい事柄と重なり、この事柄を書くために過去の自分が用意していたストーリーだったのかと感じました。

ほぼ毎日、日記のように書いて、ライブ配信みたいにできたのも自分の中では楽しかった。
何か、小説とブログのいいとこ取りみたいなことができた気がします。


この物語は「考えて書いた」という感覚はなく、「思いつき」とか「浮かんできた」とか、パッと浮かんだ言葉やストーリーが主な骨格です。話の展開も思いつきなので、鬼が「白」と「黒」になるなんて自分でも想像していませんでしたが、結果的にそれが「陰陽」に繋がったので、他人事のように「へ〜」とか思いました。

自分の中では、表現することでかなりスッキリできました。
アートには狂気も含まれるのが救いになりました。

文章は不慣れで、訳のわからない表現もあったと思いますが、これが今の僕のいっぱいいっぱいです。


第2部は「展開編」の予定です。

じっくり書くかもしれませんが、わかりません。










Thank you !

作者 風葉 2018・3・9








34 The story of the Black Demon

I bought black at Starbucks and wrote this sentence on the roof of some building.
It is March of 2018. I am alive. As a demon, I settled in the city of Kobe.

I was awake.

I died 1000 years ago as a white demon.

However, my soul dwells in the cherry blossoms of the castle, waiting for the time of reincarnation.
One piece of the white demon repeated the reincarnation of promise many times,
In a previous life is a Yin Yang, a queen, a traveler, an artist.
Ring got up all over the world.
I was born in Europe and traveled to Africa.
Memory is engraved in the soul.
I nostalgic for any reason, any country,
for some reason.
As a person's memory.




However, I am a dweller of the moon.
For each of his circles, he wore a person's body and heard conversation between a person and God.

I listened to the song of the dragon and played my own sound.






"Sound" connects "pulse".


"Pulse" of "sound"
"Pulse" of "dragon"
"Pulse" of "green"
"Pulse" of "promise"
"Pulse" of "future"
"Pulse" of "previous life"
"Pulse" of "twins" ? ? ?.


"Month"

"solar"

"Sound" connects everything.

"Nine Kannon"

The song of the ninth dragon

I feel that my story is connected.
Unbearable suffering, sorrow, if you know its meaning, you can turn it into food.
"Poisonous medicine" can be done.

Find meaning in everything and know your mission and fate.

I was born to a person, a prayer and an ogre when I was incarnated in the 1600's, about 600 years old after the death of "White Demon".
Then, at that time, I visited the source of "Sakuragi child" of Mobi.

My predecessor, a piece of a white demon.
The flower bloomed, and its fragrance remembered.
Memory was carved not only as fragrance but also as a sense of the earth and information of memory on its roots all the way of the times.

As a prayer, I received the wave of "Sakuragi child" and accepted it as a flow of mind.
The memory of the white demon and the dialogue with the gods, the oath of the dragon god, the memory of the twins, the promise with the nine dragons, the meaning of incarnation, the mission in this world. Accept them as memories ... as my memory.


Then, living as "human demon" until modern day, having the memory of "Sakuragi child", see the era and feel it.



I am a "demon".
But living in modern times.
Values ??and senses are the same as those of modern people.

So doing this, you are writing your story on your mobile.





I hope my expression is "art".
I hope that my "talk" is "art" under "freedom of expression" and "human rights".

My "expression" is also "wish" of "dragon". To declare.

I make the spirit "art" with the words of the dragon as the soul.

I understand that it is meaningful that what I am doing now is revitalized as the memory of the white demon revives. The white demon assimilated with the white dragon, knew the dragon and the will of God, and died in destiny.

I had black memories of that memory,
when I was reincarnated in the 1600s, I was alive again as "human demon" and took over the memory.
And now, a new "demon triggering" has begun.

Dragons are connected to the stars,
green dragons lodge in the archipelago.
Dragons from all over the world gathered over 1000 pillars and congregated the gods.

I know that my suffering, despair, sorrow are meaningful.
On the way, a new life was born again.

It is a dragon of one pillar that was forced to birth.
It is a new life created by hope at the end of my suffering.

I have a promise. It is a promise of resumption with twins scattered in fate.


And it will be fulfilled in the world of consciousness.

I was led by twins and the twins with the same "wave of the moon" and the gods together created a pillar of dragon that guards me.

Why do you protect me, because my wish is a wish of the dragon, a wish of the gods and a wishes of the messengers.

Gods are guardians of people.

The era of only gods, the era of old times, the "veins" and "stars" connected by the world of consciousness and soul.
The mood circulates, the wave circulates, the stars sing, I feel that the natural god and Creator God, Ryujin,
Sun day, moon sky and water star were like family.

By Creator God, a person was created, a figure of God, a spiritual keeping creature.

Spirituality was immediately demonstrated, and along with the gods lay a civilization along the great river.
Or have built a city in the sky.

As soon as spirituality fade and animal instincts start appearing on the table, we begin to conscious about the stability of 'food' and 'environment'.
From farming and accumulation, where leisure brought the culture away from "the will of God", begin to change the flow to "human will".
It is "greed", to stabilize "food" and "environment" and to obtain "wealth".

Is "human" a "person" and what "between"?

I do not yet understand the answer, I feel that it is "human" that has not yet become a "person" yet.






"Person" is a guardian from "god".
There is a person, the power of God is demonstrated for the first time.
In other words, the leading role is "person". "God" is the sun that shines people, healing water, friends, family,
grace of nature, wind and heat.
The existence that guards, lives, guides "people" is "God".
It means "work", it is "action".
Therefore, it also lives in things, living creatures and people.
God is everywhere. Because this world is the world of God.

Humans misunderstand somewhere that this world is a human world.
So human beings lost "beliefs" and morals have also been lost.

We made all kinds of destruction and slaughter, war, and made definitive destructive weapons.
It is a destructive weapon enough to kill stars.

You should recognize that it is a great sin to kill stars.
The crime committed in the world of God is engraved on the life as "work" and it is finally rewarded at the end of the suffering of the cycling of Nagaku, or there is also a great sin to fall to "Mugen Hell".

The great sin of "killing the stars" is the same deadly sin as "killing the gods".

This star is God, an ally of the moon and the sun.
I think the moon and the sun will not forgive the crime of killing this star. It will be extremely scary. Imagine!

Dirty the air, pollute the earth, stain the ocean, consolidate rivers, scrape mountains, fill valleys, change the terrain.
Human beings in modern society seems like parasites or viruses.
Living lives and brings the Lord to death.



I write so far and stop hands. There is no dust. You can write as much as you want.

The problem is "What to do".





Human beings are asked.


















I am a demon. It is an unrelated story. I am looking for my "sun".

It's my "personal problem"

That is my life.


My new 'invocation' starts here.











Part One End














Afterword

Introduction, this story is fiction. Except for some.

The first part is complete.
Thank you to everyone who has read it far.

I think that it was 8 or 9 years ago when I started writing the first paragraph of "Sakuragi child." I think that ten years have not passed, but it was quite a while ago.
At that time, I did not have the ability to write a story, I thought that I wanted to write a story of "demon" for some reason, it was a story that I wrote roughly only rough sketches.

The living environment changed drastically at the end of 2017, and I felt a big change in consciousness from the summer of the same year, which overlapped and became "power" to write this story.
Just the theme overlapped with the things I wanted to express the era background and setting, and I realized that it was the story my past prepared to write about this matter.

I wrote it like a diary almost everyday and I enjoyed being able to do it like a live distribution inside of myself.
I feel like I got something like a novel and a good point of blogging.


There is no sense that this story is "I thought I wrote", and the main skeleton is words such as 'thoughtful' or 'I've come up' with words and stories floating around. Since the expansion of the story is also conceivable, I did not imagine that the ogre would be "white" and "black",
but as a result it was connected to "Yin",
so "like to others" like someone else I thought.

In myself, it was quite refreshing by expressing it.
This is not an art, but if it is a serious dissertation, it is crazy, but it is saving that art also includes madness.

I think that the sentence was unfamiliar and there were expressions that I did not understand, but this is a lot of me now.




The second part is scheduled for "Expansion".


I may write thoroughly, but I do not know.


[Notice]
I am not homosexual.
It is not a demon either.
It is an ordinary human being.
Perhaps, it is not crazy.







Thank you!

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